In our household, Father’s Day arrives just days after my birthday, and this year, the advent of my newest decade more than overshadowed any planning or celebration for my husband. He’s stepfather to my daughters, and predictably, he “poo-poos” the event, saying, “it’s not important,” describing it as “just an excuse for commercialism,” but he “doth protest too much, methinks,” especially as I witness his complete delight as he opens a greeting card or hears a grandchild’s voice on the telephone recite the well-rehearsed “Happy Father’s Day Grandpa!”
In the article, “Father’s Day: Even the cards are different,” which appeared in a 2008 edition of the San Diego Union Tribune, reporter Jenifer Godwin wrote: Moms and dads are more equal parenting partners than ever before, with studies showing men do far more housework and spend more time with their children than previous generations. Yet Father’s Day still doesn’t inspire the same need to bestow sentimental cards, gifts and dinners out as Mother’s Day.
Godwin cited a number of statistics to show the contrast between how we celebrate mothers and fathers, for example, more cards are sent to mothers on Mother’s Day and more money is spent on mothers’ gifts. In fact, Father’s Day wasn’t even an official holiday until 1972, over a half century after the official designation of Mother’s Day. Add one more layer of complexity to this state of lesser remembrance, that of being a stepfather, and I suspect we’d find even greater disparity.
I guess it was the telephone call from one daughter early this morning, wishing J. a “Happy Father’s Day,” that got me reconsidering this post. I always think of my father on this day, and I am just as certain my daughters pause to remember theirs, my first husband, whose life was cut short while the girls were still in elementary school. But as I listened to J.’s laughter, his voice full of delight as he chatted with E. and our granddaughter, I began to think of the extraordinary influence he, as stepfather, has had both girls; how he so willingly embraced two teenagers into his life and weathered the “sturm und drang” of adolescence with as much commitment as any birth father.
We laugh together now about some of the stormier interactions, how one or the other daughter tested him at various times and fiercely reminded him that he was not “Dad” nor would he ever be. Yet he responded with grace and the ability to dance that conflicted tango of step-fatherhood, of “I love you”—“don’t even think that I love you” that often defined those first years as a reconstituted family. Little by little, the relationship between J. and the girls deepened and grew, and without any fanfare, their bond solidified. “This is my father,” E. said as she introduced him to her high school French teacher three years later. I stifled a gasp. J. simply extended his hand to say hello, but I saw his eyes tear up for a moment.
J. has been instrumental in igniting one daughter’s interest and career in international community development. When E. traveled to rural Thailand on her first work project, J. was working on a development project in Laos. He made a 36 hour stop in Bangkok and took a twelve-hour bus trip to her village to share a meal together with her host family, before returning to Bangkok to fly on to Laos. As our second daughter struggled with low self-esteem and fear of academia, he patiently accompanied her from community college to community college, until gradually, she had the courage to enroll. He discussed readings and research with her as she steered her studies toward psychology and anthropology. For the duration of her undergraduate years, C. never earned less than an “A” –even in the statistics courses she feared so much. J. was coach and mentor, and I thrilled as I witnessed her blossoming and growing self-confidence.
This Father’s Day, I honor all fathers and their importance in our lives, but today, I’ll be celebrating my husband with gratitude for his patient and loving contribution to my daughters’ lives and my own. He is friend, companion, mentor, and has become more father that anyone, including him, could have imagined.
He wasn’t hard on us kids,
never struck us…
He used to sing in the car
bought us root beers along the road.
He loved us with his deeds.
(From: “A Father’s Pain,” in A River Remains by Larry Smith)
Today I remember how deeply important fathers have been in my life and my daughters’, and whether fond or complicated, the memories of our fathers are full of stories. Write one. And to all the fathers—whether those who helped to birth us or those who were “like” fathers–who had a lasting and loving influence in our lives, Happy Father’s Day.
Sharon, what a wonderful article. I am so happy to see how much you and the girls have brought to his life. You are a very special lady.
Love Joan and Edwin
Thank you Joan. xo
Beautiful, Sharon. And knowing “J”, I am not surprised to hear of his marvelous influence on your daughters–and grandchildren!
Thank you, Kathi!